So..I've decided in my quest to stay on top of this blogging thing I've decided to start a weekly rambling post.
* I absolutely HATE laundry. I don't mind throwing it in the washer and dryer but sorting, folding and hanging up THEN having to put it away is just too time consuming for me. It's my least favorite chore.
*I have big plans of getting this house completely organized but with 3 kids it never stays that way for over 2 weeks so I've given up.
*Only 20 more days till my 10 year wedding anniversary!!! Josh and I say that we aren't exchanging gifts and I really haven't bought him anything so let's hope he sticks to it also so I don't feel horrible.
*50 long days till Josh flies home!! woohoo!!! I really hope the days pass quickly but I've barely started our Christmas shopping so I'm hopeful that I get more accomplished in the next 50 days. :-)
*Katie is spending the weekend at my sisters house and I was planning on getting her bedroom and closet organized..summer clothes out and winter clothes in. It's 5:00 pm and I've not even started :-(
*Jackson is driving me bonkers today!! He found a pencil and marker and went on a drawing spree on the living room and hallway walls while I was downstairs doing laundry. 2 hours with a Magic Eraser and the walls still look like crap. Little boy will be going to bed early tonight.
*Jared has pretty much locked himself in his bedroom all day long on his quest to beat a game on his iPod....that kid really needs a hobby...lol.
*Pretty sure that I'm ready for Spring time already. This whole hot one day and cold the next is getting old already. Florida is sounding better and better all the time.
*I hate it that I can't decide what to get anybody for Christmas. I really am thinking I'll do homemade goodies. The kids could even help some which is a plus. The kids are getting older and more difficult. What ever happened to kids wanting toys till they are like 10! My kids are asking for laptops and ipads at 6 and 8! (not happening but maybe we can compromise a little on that)
*Sometimes I wish I had things to do every once and a while with the kids and without the kids. But with 3 kids...asking anyone to watch all 3 seems a little mean so I don't. Guess I'll have plenty of time to watch movies and go out with friends when my kids are grown and out of the house. Or maybe I'll get better about inviting friends over and the kids will actually behave enough that friends want to come back...lol. :-)
*It's a spaghetti and movie night here with my 2 boys. So I think this is all for now. My brain is tired so it's definitely been a rambled kinda day! Hope everyone else is having a great weekend!!!
Just a place where I can gather my thoughts.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Monday, October 15, 2012
The Day to Remember
I had just confirmed our pregnancy and found out I was around 6 weeks pregnant with my 2nd child that previous week at the Dr's office. Josh had left the day before (Oct. 7th) for a training in St. Louis with a co-worker who is oddly enough the person responsible for getting him his current job. I had packed my own bags into a friends house that previous night and had immediately started cramping a little. I went to bed with Jared and propped my legs up. The cramping stopped so I thought everything was fine. The next morning...Aside from the obvious reason that I was spotting I knew something bad was going to happen. At the time, I was fearing bedrest for the next several months. NEVER in my mind did I think my baby was already gone. This baby was wanted...so so wanted. From the first moment I heard the nurse who was giving me a pee test before renewing my brith control prescription say that I had tested positive I knew this baby was wanted by Josh and I. Yes...you heard right. I did not know I was pregnant at that point until I went in for the prescription that week prior. Anyways, I get up and call the dr's office and they want me there asap. So I wake up my friends daughter and tell her to get in bed with Jared and that I would be back in a few hours. I get to the dr's office and they take me back. Here, they give me a ultrasound to tell me that my baby was miscarrying and that it was just a matter of time before I passed it. PASSED IT?!?! I don't want to pass it, I want to keep it there and let it grow into a beautiful baby girl or boy! To say I was stunned is an understatement. I passed out and the next thing I know I'm in the recovery room at the hospital after having an emergency D&C. In the meantime, my sister had tried and tried to get ahold of Josh. She finally gets in touch with him and they head home from St. Louis full throttle. The next morning, I wake up at my friends house with Josh sitting next to me. All I remember of the next few days is crying...crying for all we lost, crying for my mistakes. Did I cause the miscarriage by not knowing about the pregnancy and taking my birth control pills all that time? Did I cause the miscarriage by packing in my bags? I don't know. The OB said later that he thought the baby would have miscarried regardless and that sometimes it just happens. All I know is that Oct. 8th, the day my baby left my womb and May 26th, the due-date we were given for our baby will never be the same. I think about this baby all the time, I've had many dreams of a little girl with long curly brown hair and blue eyes. I know without a shadow of a doubt that my baby is in the arms of Jesus and is well. I grieve for all of the mothers who have experienced this same pain, and hold my kids tighter thanking God for allowing me to carry them to birth and seeing them here healthy. I'll continue to pray for all the mothers with empty arms that they will one day get to hold a baby in their arms because one thing I'm sure of...whether or not you hold a child or not, your still a mother and one day you'll be reunited with your child. God takes care of ALL his children, not just the one's who were delivered full term and healthy.
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Sorry :-(
I can't believe it's been 14 whole days since I last posted on this blog! It's not that I hadn't wanted to blog...I just haven't really felt the need to blog anything. But then today, I decided this blog was for ME, and I should at least post my feelings at the moment. so here it goes.....
In less than 1 week, my baby girl will under go another surgery. This time to take her tonsils and adenoids out. I HATE it that she has to be put to sleep twice in one months time. It stinks...really really stinks. But hopefully this is just one more thing that will keep her from getting sick so much. I just hate the recovery part. She's going to be miserable and I'm going to be miserable but not able to show it. I know if Josh were going to be here...he'd be such a huge help but he won't be and there is nothing I can do about that. Don't get me wrong..I know he wants to be here more than anything and will worry himself sick until she's better. :-( We sure do miss him so much all the time, but even more so when things aren't going so great.
On to other things....the kids are all doing great. Just tonight Jared came up to me and started reciting his multiplication tables BY MEMORY!!!! Honestly, we had been working on them a little bit, but only like the 1's, 2's and 3's...and he just starts doing random problems in his head and sprouting off the answers. So, I decided to quiz him a little and started asking him harder one's. not lying...he answered every single one of them in less than 3 seconds. I am floored at how genius this kid is. Anyone that knows me, knows that I can do accounting and work a calculator better than most people I know...but I don't do math in my head. Even basic math has me counting in my head, so to have a kid who just naturally picks it up is awesome. :-)
Josh and I have a big milestone coming up. On November 16th we well be celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary! I know...right?!? That's just awesome and it SO does not feel like we've been married almost 10 years. He'll still be in Afghanistan, so I'm sure I'll just be sitting at home with the kids and maybe order pizza to celebrate the occasion. I've been entering a contest to win Chris Young concert tickets (front row seats) and Meet and Greet passes. The concert is in Nashville on the 15th...and my theory is that if I can't spend it with my hubby, I may as well get to spend my anniversary in Nashville seeing my favorite country artist who I joke is my boyfriend :-) To say that I love Chris Young music is quite an understatement. It's my ringtone, my ringback tones, and constantly playing on my iPhone. Most of his songs I can relate to Josh and I so that just makes him even better! So wish me luck that I win the tickets. The day they went on sale, I logged on to order tickets and the only seats left weren't good seats and I have no interest in the nose bleed sections. :-(
I guess that is about all for tonight...I just hope I can get better at blogging. I feel better after doing it just finding topics I want to "put out there" is a little hard for me. :-(
In less than 1 week, my baby girl will under go another surgery. This time to take her tonsils and adenoids out. I HATE it that she has to be put to sleep twice in one months time. It stinks...really really stinks. But hopefully this is just one more thing that will keep her from getting sick so much. I just hate the recovery part. She's going to be miserable and I'm going to be miserable but not able to show it. I know if Josh were going to be here...he'd be such a huge help but he won't be and there is nothing I can do about that. Don't get me wrong..I know he wants to be here more than anything and will worry himself sick until she's better. :-( We sure do miss him so much all the time, but even more so when things aren't going so great.
On to other things....the kids are all doing great. Just tonight Jared came up to me and started reciting his multiplication tables BY MEMORY!!!! Honestly, we had been working on them a little bit, but only like the 1's, 2's and 3's...and he just starts doing random problems in his head and sprouting off the answers. So, I decided to quiz him a little and started asking him harder one's. not lying...he answered every single one of them in less than 3 seconds. I am floored at how genius this kid is. Anyone that knows me, knows that I can do accounting and work a calculator better than most people I know...but I don't do math in my head. Even basic math has me counting in my head, so to have a kid who just naturally picks it up is awesome. :-)
Josh and I have a big milestone coming up. On November 16th we well be celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary! I know...right?!? That's just awesome and it SO does not feel like we've been married almost 10 years. He'll still be in Afghanistan, so I'm sure I'll just be sitting at home with the kids and maybe order pizza to celebrate the occasion. I've been entering a contest to win Chris Young concert tickets (front row seats) and Meet and Greet passes. The concert is in Nashville on the 15th...and my theory is that if I can't spend it with my hubby, I may as well get to spend my anniversary in Nashville seeing my favorite country artist who I joke is my boyfriend :-) To say that I love Chris Young music is quite an understatement. It's my ringtone, my ringback tones, and constantly playing on my iPhone. Most of his songs I can relate to Josh and I so that just makes him even better! So wish me luck that I win the tickets. The day they went on sale, I logged on to order tickets and the only seats left weren't good seats and I have no interest in the nose bleed sections. :-(
I guess that is about all for tonight...I just hope I can get better at blogging. I feel better after doing it just finding topics I want to "put out there" is a little hard for me. :-(
Monday, September 10, 2012
Monday Wrapup
WHY does cleaning have to take so long. Sometimes I really regret us buying this huge house, it seems to take a week to clean every room and by then it's time to start over. But then I have 3 kids living in this space, so I'm sure they help with making it dirty too. And it IS pretty nice being able to separate the kids into 3 different parts of the house...lol. We got up this morning and took the kids to school, then came home and got to cleaning. Around 11, I decided to tackle my kids toy boxes and closets. After finally stopping at 3 garbage bags full, we loaded the truck and took those to drop off at the school as a donation. Needless to say, I need to buy LOTS more bags before I'm even remotely close to finishing their rooms. Jared is 8, Katie is 6 but neither child really plays with toys. Jared is content with his ipod, games, and being outside. It doesn't matter what the weather is like, that kid wants to be outside. Katie loves her books, art stuff and make-up. She never plays with Barbies, Dolls, or none of the other pretend-play things she has in her room. I'm up for just dumping the totes into garbage bags and being done with it. But that would never work because both kids want to keep every single toy that Josh ever bought them. Anyways...I'll get done eventually but I refuse to buy them any toys for Christmas. Welcome to the world of giftcards and iTunes cards!
On that note, Josh and I have decided to buy Jackson a train table for Christmas. As a family, we have decided that each child will get 2 gifts plus stocking stuffers (gift cards go in stockings). For Jared and Katie I'm thinking of a laptop or iPad (maybe Jared a Laptop and Katie an iPad), then the other gift will be something that they ask for specifically when they write their letters at school. And then Jackson will get the train table and a few other things. The problem with this is Jackson's will in no way costs as much as Jared and Katies. We don't do Santa in this house, it's not that I've told them their is no Santa....we just acknowledge Santa is a person and Mommy & Daddy buy the gifts. I'm sure this year we will do a little more "santa things" just for Jackson since he's still so little. I've pretty much got my lists done, and have started some shopping. Just hope that I can get done before Thanksgiving with everyone else so that I can go Black Friday shopping to get the deals for myself and Josh. :-) I still am thinking I want an iPhone 5 but I may just wait it out till my current iPhone 4 dies completely. And just because I'm not sure if Josh reads this or not...I'll keep my thoughts for his present to myself....I'm sneaky like that.
*This posts was not edited just because it's Monday, I'm tired and being lazy...so overlook all errors. Thanks for stopping in.
On that note, Josh and I have decided to buy Jackson a train table for Christmas. As a family, we have decided that each child will get 2 gifts plus stocking stuffers (gift cards go in stockings). For Jared and Katie I'm thinking of a laptop or iPad (maybe Jared a Laptop and Katie an iPad), then the other gift will be something that they ask for specifically when they write their letters at school. And then Jackson will get the train table and a few other things. The problem with this is Jackson's will in no way costs as much as Jared and Katies. We don't do Santa in this house, it's not that I've told them their is no Santa....we just acknowledge Santa is a person and Mommy & Daddy buy the gifts. I'm sure this year we will do a little more "santa things" just for Jackson since he's still so little. I've pretty much got my lists done, and have started some shopping. Just hope that I can get done before Thanksgiving with everyone else so that I can go Black Friday shopping to get the deals for myself and Josh. :-) I still am thinking I want an iPhone 5 but I may just wait it out till my current iPhone 4 dies completely. And just because I'm not sure if Josh reads this or not...I'll keep my thoughts for his present to myself....I'm sneaky like that.
*This posts was not edited just because it's Monday, I'm tired and being lazy...so overlook all errors. Thanks for stopping in.
Saturday, September 8, 2012
venting....
another day is winding down. I went to bed last night thinking I would get up early, fix breakfast and wait for the hubby to log on, call, or Facetime with the kids. Those were my thoughts as I finally drifted off to sleep around 2 a.m. Needless to say that's not at all what happened. I ended up staying in bed till 8:30, got up and gave the boys hair cuts, baths, and then fixed an early lunch. We then had to all get dressed to head to the funeral home where all 3 kids acted SO good (bright spot in the day). Did the hubby even think to call when he got done working and to his room...NO, did he pop online to leave me or the kids a message saying he was going to bed...NO. Sometimes I really think he does these things just to see if I notice. Yes..I know I've been busy alot during the last few weeks and we haven't been able to talk via videochat at all. But I do remember telling him last night that the kids and I would like to talk to him today. Instead at 1:30 pm I was calling him to see why he didn't call us or log on today only to find out he had went straight to bed. The kids were crushed..heck, I was crushed! I know he's got alot of work going on, and trying to hang out with the guys some too. But seriously...I feel even more like a single parent at this moment than I ever have before. Walking into that funeral home with all 3 kids in tow...(to his uncles viewing.), and then my mother and father in law helped keep the kids occupied while there..and then taking all 3 kids alone to get something to eat. As I sat at Pizza Hut with the kids and I ordered their food, opened straws, and started cutting up pizza for Jackson...it seemed everyone was staring at us. I HATE that pity look. I would rather people hate me than pity me. Don't get me wrong..the kids were awesome, well behaved and no fighting...but I know what those people are thinking. I know because I once was one of those people who felt sorry for those moms who had their hands full. And even though I'm not a single mom, I've spent more time raising my kids alone without Josh here, than Josh and I have spent parenting together. Don't get me wrong..he's an awesome dad, and normally he really does do everything in his power to make sure the kids and I know that he is thinking of us too. But ever since he went back to Afghanistan this last time, I've really felt like we were on the back burner. It's probably all in my head...I can't deny that I've been super stressed lately with Katie's dr's appts, family drama, and just the every day stress of having 3 kids, 2 being in school. but still, I do love him and I know he loves us. I just wish sometimes he could talk to me more about what's going on over there.
I made a step today and linked my Twitter to my blog. I don't think I have but like 17 followers so it's not THAT big of a step...but a step none-the-less. Only one person knew about me blogging, and that was my best friend and she didn't even know the name of my blog or the site address. So to have it linked to those 17 followers is a step to "publishing" my blog to the public. Maybe someday I'll link it to my Facebook, but not today. I really don't have many friends who I confide in, really only 2 (my hubby and bestie) she's busy with publishing her books and family life...and the hubby is just plain busy at work and hanging with the guys after work. Writing this blog is helping, I seem to sleep better after getting it all out there and I refuse to censor my feelings on my own blog. And yes..I realize that I would have more friends if I called up some gals and told them I needed to talk. but people change, situations change and our schedules change. Just because I'm done with supper, baths and cleaning doesn't mean that everyone else is. I don't call my friends who are married because I don't want to interrupt their family times, and let's just say I haven't been on speed dial in a long long time for anyone. I have a few friends who shoot me random texts a couple times a month because they do things they know will make me laugh...but that's about it anymore. It's sad but I can't say that I've been the perfect friend either. I don't invite my friends here...I think 2 of my friends have been to my house and we've lived here almost 2 years. I really need to change that but I'm just not ready to entertain company. I miss the old me. the one who was always so upbeat and ready for a challenge of cooking solo for a dozen people and then having kids over all the time. Have I said yet that I'm ready for my hubby to be home yet? Well, I am. I'm so ready for him to be home and to take his role as husband and daddy to a more hands-on role than I ever thought I would. But he's doing a job that he was truly meant to do and the Lord has blessed him so much with the knowledge and connections to do this job. And myself, I've been blessed to be able to spend every single second with the kids and even on days where I just really want a break...I can look at their little faces and all stress just melts away if I forget about the housework and just sit down and cuddle or play with them. :-)
**I did not edit this post, so I'll apologize for any errors in spelling or grammer. I know that had I edited..I would probably delete most of it.
I made a step today and linked my Twitter to my blog. I don't think I have but like 17 followers so it's not THAT big of a step...but a step none-the-less. Only one person knew about me blogging, and that was my best friend and she didn't even know the name of my blog or the site address. So to have it linked to those 17 followers is a step to "publishing" my blog to the public. Maybe someday I'll link it to my Facebook, but not today. I really don't have many friends who I confide in, really only 2 (my hubby and bestie) she's busy with publishing her books and family life...and the hubby is just plain busy at work and hanging with the guys after work. Writing this blog is helping, I seem to sleep better after getting it all out there and I refuse to censor my feelings on my own blog. And yes..I realize that I would have more friends if I called up some gals and told them I needed to talk. but people change, situations change and our schedules change. Just because I'm done with supper, baths and cleaning doesn't mean that everyone else is. I don't call my friends who are married because I don't want to interrupt their family times, and let's just say I haven't been on speed dial in a long long time for anyone. I have a few friends who shoot me random texts a couple times a month because they do things they know will make me laugh...but that's about it anymore. It's sad but I can't say that I've been the perfect friend either. I don't invite my friends here...I think 2 of my friends have been to my house and we've lived here almost 2 years. I really need to change that but I'm just not ready to entertain company. I miss the old me. the one who was always so upbeat and ready for a challenge of cooking solo for a dozen people and then having kids over all the time. Have I said yet that I'm ready for my hubby to be home yet? Well, I am. I'm so ready for him to be home and to take his role as husband and daddy to a more hands-on role than I ever thought I would. But he's doing a job that he was truly meant to do and the Lord has blessed him so much with the knowledge and connections to do this job. And myself, I've been blessed to be able to spend every single second with the kids and even on days where I just really want a break...I can look at their little faces and all stress just melts away if I forget about the housework and just sit down and cuddle or play with them. :-)
**I did not edit this post, so I'll apologize for any errors in spelling or grammer. I know that had I edited..I would probably delete most of it.
Friday, September 7, 2012
I want to get away...I want to flyyyyy away. yeah -- yeah -- yeah!
so..today is Friday. I should be excited about this, but instead I find myself dreading the weekend. Don't get me wrong...I do enjoy having my kids 24/7. Anyone that does know me, knows that this is true...but every once and a while I long for a day alone without having to clean, do laundry, cook food, or entertain kids. Just a day where I can sleep as late as I want to and then use my gigantic whirlpool tub that at most has been used a dozen times since we moved here Dec. 2010 without one of the kids knocking on the door and asking if I'm done yet. In a few weeks, my bestie and I have a Spa Day planned. We don't get together nearly enough but I know that I'll enjoy it and it can't get here SOON enough! Those few hours without kids and pure relaxation.....yep, I'm ready NOW. Anyways, the purpose of this blog was to help me remember these days so I guess today will be my first journal entry on my blog!
Sometimes I just don't know what I ever did without my 3 kids. But then, sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed with responsibility that I just want to jump in the truck and drive miles and miles...alone. This is the part that really sucks about Josh being overseas for 2 straight years with only little 2 week breaks every 6 months. It seems when he's home, I don't want to leave him and the kids for even a second to have "alone time" but then when he leaves...I always wish I had taken a day to myself. And I do have people who would watch my kids, but that isn't the point. The times that I really just want a break are usually at night after a super stressful day....and I don't make a habit of ever getting a babysitter (grandparents or my sister) unless it's something important and I can't take the kids. I do love my kids more than anything...but sometimes a break for no reason would be nice. I'm still thinking that Josh and I will take a long over-due honeymoon to the mountains. We never really had one, we stayed local in a hotel for one night and was on our way home at 8 this next morning. I'd love to go and stay several days in a cabin and do the whole sight-seeing thing with my hubby without having to stop every 30 minutes because a kid needs to pee, is hungry, is tired...or being just a plain brat. Not to mention that this November, we will have been married 10 years, with 5 of that him working away from home traveling from state to state (and usually coming home one or 2 weekends a month), and then he did over a year in Iraq, and this will make 2 years in Afghanistan (not alot of time together). Don't get me wrong, we are happily married and I'm not worried about the "spark" not being there. Heck...I still get butterflies when I hear that familar "beep" that means he's online, or I hear his ringtone. :-) I just think that a few days away from everything will be good for us. When he's home on his r/r's, we always take a date night where someone watches the kids overnight and we go out to eat and to a movie and then home. But that's really it...the rest of the time it's all about him spending time with the kids (as he should be). I didn't really mean to get on that topic...but I'm glad I've put it out there so that years from now, I can remember exactly how I felt at this time in my life.
Sometimes I just don't know what I ever did without my 3 kids. But then, sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed with responsibility that I just want to jump in the truck and drive miles and miles...alone. This is the part that really sucks about Josh being overseas for 2 straight years with only little 2 week breaks every 6 months. It seems when he's home, I don't want to leave him and the kids for even a second to have "alone time" but then when he leaves...I always wish I had taken a day to myself. And I do have people who would watch my kids, but that isn't the point. The times that I really just want a break are usually at night after a super stressful day....and I don't make a habit of ever getting a babysitter (grandparents or my sister) unless it's something important and I can't take the kids. I do love my kids more than anything...but sometimes a break for no reason would be nice. I'm still thinking that Josh and I will take a long over-due honeymoon to the mountains. We never really had one, we stayed local in a hotel for one night and was on our way home at 8 this next morning. I'd love to go and stay several days in a cabin and do the whole sight-seeing thing with my hubby without having to stop every 30 minutes because a kid needs to pee, is hungry, is tired...or being just a plain brat. Not to mention that this November, we will have been married 10 years, with 5 of that him working away from home traveling from state to state (and usually coming home one or 2 weekends a month), and then he did over a year in Iraq, and this will make 2 years in Afghanistan (not alot of time together). Don't get me wrong, we are happily married and I'm not worried about the "spark" not being there. Heck...I still get butterflies when I hear that familar "beep" that means he's online, or I hear his ringtone. :-) I just think that a few days away from everything will be good for us. When he's home on his r/r's, we always take a date night where someone watches the kids overnight and we go out to eat and to a movie and then home. But that's really it...the rest of the time it's all about him spending time with the kids (as he should be). I didn't really mean to get on that topic...but I'm glad I've put it out there so that years from now, I can remember exactly how I felt at this time in my life.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
200?!?!?!
Questions that is!!!
200. My name is:
Jennifer
196. My eye color is:
Brown
195. My shoe size is:
9
186. One thing you love about yourself.
185. Relationships are:
totally worth it. Every couple has their trials but that's how you grow.
184. My mother is:
awesome.
183. My father is:
the best! (true daddy's girl right here. :-)
182. I want to:
go to sleep...soon
181. I can't stand it when:
people assume they know more about my life/family/kids than I do.
180. Cheaters:
should be shot. Most adults have cellphones. If you find yourself in a position where your gonna cheat..pick up the phone or text them and break it off. That's better than lying and cheating
179. My favorite Holiday is:
probably Christmas
178. The Perfect Kiss is:
when my hubby gets off that airplane.
177. The last three cds i bought were:
I haven't bought a CD in years!!!
174. Do you have any siblings?:
Yes
173. Are your parents divorced?
No
172. What did you do yesterday?:
not a whole lot. Mainly just played with Jackson
150. What was for dinner last night?:
The 2nd pot of potato soup I made
:::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In::
142. Love at first sight?
Yes
141. Luck?
Yes
140. Fate?
Yes
139. Yourself?
Most of the time
138. Aliens?
no
137. Heaven?
absolutely!
136. Hell?
yes
135. Ghosts?
nope
134. Horoscopes?
I read them, but don't necessarily believe what they say.
133. Soulmates?
yes
132. God?
yes
131. Premarital sex?
I think it's wise to save that for marriage.
:::Which is Better?:::
130. Life or Death?
Life
129. hugs or kisses?
Hugs
128. Drunk or High?
neither
127. Phone or Online?
Phone
126. Red heads or Black hair?
Black
125. Blondes or Brunettes?
brunettes
124. Hot or cold?
Hot
123. Summer or winter?
Summer
121. Chocolate or vanilla?
Vanilla
120. Night or Day?
Day
119. Oranges or Apples?
apples
118. Curly or Straight hair:?
Straight
117. Smile or Eyes:?
eyes
:::Here's What I Think About:::
116. Abortion:
wrong, a baby is a baby from conception.
115. Backstabbers..
will get what they deserve
114. Parents:
should always put THEIR children first no matter what
113. Magic?:
Not real
112. American Politics?:
confusing
111. The Writers Strike?:
That was stupid!
110. Music?:
LOVE it!
109. Drunks?:
sad
108. Gas Prices?:
makes me sick
107. George W?:
made some mistakes but overall, I liked him
106. Southern States?:
where I live
105. Northern States?:
102. Kissed someone:
my babies.
100. Cried in front of someone:
yesterday.
99. Went to a funeral?:
not even sure when/who the last funeral I went to was.
98. Went apple picking?:
never
97.. Was on stage?:
can't remember
96. Made someone laugh?:
Today
95. Answered a text message?:
today
94. Saw a movie?:
while the hubs was home in July.
92. Was out of state?:
June
91. Did a household chore?:
today
:::MISC:::
90. Who is the ditziest person you know:
my daughter...I love her, but sometimes she's clueless
89. Who makes you laugh the most:
My kids
82. What I don't understand is:
why certain things happen to good people
75. The thing I'm looking forward to the most is:
Dec. 16th!
74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is:
Katie's tonsil surgery
73. Tomorrow:
is Thursday
72. Today:
I'm going to bed soon.
71. Next Summer:
Can't get here fast enough
70. This Weekend:
is going to be a lazy weekend for us.
67. People call me:
Jen, Jenny
62. The person who knows the most about me is:
my hubs.
60. The most difficult thing to do is:
drive away from that dang airport. I hate it.
59. I have gotten a speeding ticket:
never
55. The first person i talked to today was:
Jared
54. First Crush?
oh gah, I have no idea!
53. The one person who I can't hide things from:
Josh.
52. Last time someone said something you were thinking:
Josh does this ALL the time!
51. Right now I am talking to:
nobody
50. What is your dream job?
this is the question of the century..I'm not exactly sure what I want to do "when I grow up!"
49. First job?
DQ
47. Pets?
Rufus
46. I wish:
for a lot of things
45. Worst sound in the world:
sirens
44. The person that makes me cry the most is:
myself
43. Best sound in the world:
My babies
42. Last person to make you cry:
Myself
41. Why? ...
missing my hubs
40. Are things ok between you and that person?
awesome :-)
39. Person that makes you really happy?
my little family
38. Cats or dogs?
Dogs.
37. Your first kiss:
in kindergarden
36. Which Golden Girl would you be?
I would be Dorothy I think
35 Myspace or Facebook:
Facebook
34. Mexican food or Chinese?
Mexican
33. My favorite piece of clothing?
PJ's
32. My favorite color is:
Blue and Pink
31. Last time I cried:
yesterday
30. My friends are:
great
29. My computer:
HP
27. Last person i got mad at?:
Jackson, for trying to paint the floor with nail polish
26. Person you secretly crush?
nobody..but Chris Young is hot. (I can say this because Josh has a sick fascination with Sara Evans)
25. Favorite place:
at home
24. Favorite Song: ...
Voices - Chris Young
23. Paper or plastic?
plastic
22. The all-time best movie(s) is/are :
Pure Country, sweet home alabama, green Mile
21. The all-time best feeling in the world is:
being in my hubbys arms or cuddling on the couch with all 3 of my babies piled around
20. Favorite scent?
baby lotion
19. What color is your hairbrush:
blue
18.Favorite pair of shoes?
Under Armour tennis shoes...LOVE them.
17. I lose all respect for people who:
don't appreciate their children
16. I respect people who:
help others
Physical Pain....my knee surgeries Mentally...when I miscarried (i don't wish that on anyone)
10. Best Memory:
When my kids were born
9. Favorite TV Show:
Pawn Stars!!!
8. My favorite celebrity is:
Reece Witherspoon
7. Favorite Stuffed Animal:
ones that Josh gave me OR my 4 teddy bears that I still have from when I was young
6. Greatest Fear:
losing one of my kids or hubby
5. My weakness is:
Ski
4. I am waiting for:
Josh to log on
3. Who broke your heart:
my heart is fine.
2. One thing that makes you feel great is:
My Kids
1. One person that you wish you could see right now:
the hubs..and my Mamaw Bagby, I know she would have LOVED my kids..especially Katie.
Here goes!
200. My name is:
Jennifer
199. I was born
in:
Greensburg, KY
Greensburg, KY
198. I am
really:
Bored & Sleepy (but waiting for hte hubby to log on)
197. My phone is:
an iPhone 4Bored & Sleepy (but waiting for hte hubby to log on)
197. My phone is:
196. My eye color is:
Brown
195. My shoe size is:
9
194. My ring size is:
not really sure now, my wedding rings fall off now.
193. My height is:
5'5"
192. I am allergic to:
Nothing to my knowledge
191. I was born on:
05.04.1984
190. I am annoyed by:
people who take advantage of others and lazy people who expect everything handed to themnot really sure now, my wedding rings fall off now.
193. My height is:
5'5"
192. I am allergic to:
Nothing to my knowledge
191. I was born on:
05.04.1984
190. I am annoyed by:
189. Last book you read:
not real sure on the name of it.
188. My bed is:
aww..my bed. I LOVE my bed. When we bought this house, I insisted on a $1000 mattress like my parents, BEST.DECISION.EVER! Let's just hope it holds it shape for the next 20 years like it should so that I don't regret that decision.
187. One thing you hate about yourself:
I wish I didn't have to wear contacts/glasses every single second that I'm awake or I can't see crap.not real sure on the name of it.
188. My bed is:
aww..my bed. I LOVE my bed. When we bought this house, I insisted on a $1000 mattress like my parents, BEST.DECISION.EVER! Let's just hope it holds it shape for the next 20 years like it should so that I don't regret that decision.
187. One thing you hate about yourself:
186. One thing you love about yourself.
185. Relationships are:
totally worth it. Every couple has their trials but that's how you grow.
184. My mother is:
awesome.
183. My father is:
the best! (true daddy's girl right here. :-)
182. I want to:
go to sleep...soon
181. I can't stand it when:
people assume they know more about my life/family/kids than I do.
180. Cheaters:
should be shot. Most adults have cellphones. If you find yourself in a position where your gonna cheat..pick up the phone or text them and break it off. That's better than lying and cheating
179. My favorite Holiday is:
probably Christmas
178. The Perfect Kiss is:
when my hubby gets off that airplane.
177. The last three cds i bought were:
I haven't bought a CD in years!!!
176. Worst musician
ever?
there are a few that grate on my nerves
175. Are you living at home?:
in MY house, yesthere are a few that grate on my nerves
175. Are you living at home?:
174. Do you have any siblings?:
Yes
173. Are your parents divorced?
No
172. What did you do yesterday?:
not a whole lot. Mainly just played with Jackson
171. The band you're
listening to?:
none at the moment
170. The last band you saw live?:
Chris Young/Miranda Lambert/Jerrod Neiman
169. Favorite TV show that's not on anymore?:
The Voice...it'll be back soon.
168. How many times have you swore today?:
none
none at the moment
170. The last band you saw live?:
Chris Young/Miranda Lambert/Jerrod Neiman
169. Favorite TV show that's not on anymore?:
The Voice...it'll be back soon.
168. How many times have you swore today?:
none
167. What's the weather like
today?:
Rainy
166. Last female / male you
spoke to that you are not involved with?:
sister
sister
165. Does it bother you not to
understand something?:
Yes
164. Do you think anyone will read to this point?:
MaybeYes
164. Do you think anyone will read to this point?:
163. Do you think teenagers
have too much time on their hands?:
Some of them do but others seem to keep busy
162. You've just won the lottery for big money. What do you do?:
Get out of debt and then help others
Some of them do but others seem to keep busy
162. You've just won the lottery for big money. What do you do?:
Get out of debt and then help others
161. Do you need anything
right now?:
I don't think so
160. Current Mood?:
blah and sleepy
159. What are you drinking?:
nothing
158. Has being on Facebook been good for you?:
not really. I don't really read what people post on there very much. I only still have a FB to keep my hubby informed and so he can see pics of the kids.
I don't think so
160. Current Mood?:
blah and sleepy
159. What are you drinking?:
nothing
158. Has being on Facebook been good for you?:
not really. I don't really read what people post on there very much. I only still have a FB to keep my hubby informed and so he can see pics of the kids.
157. You get a punch in the
face?:
I'm punching back!
156. What is your heritage?:
No idea
I'm punching back!
156. What is your heritage?:
No idea
155. What are you thinking
about?:
this survey and why I'm answering 200 random questions
154. How much cash do you have ?
No clue - I usually don't keep cash.
this survey and why I'm answering 200 random questions
154. How much cash do you have ?
No clue - I usually don't keep cash.
153. Last dumb thing you
did?:
totally burnt a whole pot of potato soup, while sitting like 5 feet from it.
152. Do you think there's someone out there that likes you?:
Yes
151. Did you watch TV last night?:
Pawn Stars :-)))totally burnt a whole pot of potato soup, while sitting like 5 feet from it.
152. Do you think there's someone out there that likes you?:
Yes
151. Did you watch TV last night?:
150. What was for dinner last night?:
The 2nd pot of potato soup I made
149. Do you get angry
easily?:
unfortunately
148. Have you ever been so angry, you broke something?:
negative
unfortunately
148. Have you ever been so angry, you broke something?:
negative
147. Has anyone said you were
broken?:
I've said that about myself
146. How many people do you call true friends?:
I don't really know anymore. People I thought I could count on have proven me wrong here lately.
145. Ever broken a bone?:
Wrist
144. When was the last time you had good sex?:
uh, none of your business!
143. How was the first time you had sex?:
this is none of your business as well
I've said that about myself
146. How many people do you call true friends?:
I don't really know anymore. People I thought I could count on have proven me wrong here lately.
145. Ever broken a bone?:
Wrist
144. When was the last time you had good sex?:
uh, none of your business!
143. How was the first time you had sex?:
this is none of your business as well
:::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In::
142. Love at first sight?
Yes
141. Luck?
Yes
140. Fate?
Yes
139. Yourself?
Most of the time
138. Aliens?
no
137. Heaven?
absolutely!
136. Hell?
yes
135. Ghosts?
nope
134. Horoscopes?
I read them, but don't necessarily believe what they say.
133. Soulmates?
yes
132. God?
yes
131. Premarital sex?
I think it's wise to save that for marriage.
:::Which is Better?:::
130. Life or Death?
Life
129. hugs or kisses?
Hugs
128. Drunk or High?
neither
127. Phone or Online?
Phone
126. Red heads or Black hair?
Black
125. Blondes or Brunettes?
brunettes
124. Hot or cold?
Hot
123. Summer or winter?
Summer
121. Chocolate or vanilla?
Vanilla
120. Night or Day?
Day
119. Oranges or Apples?
apples
118. Curly or Straight hair:?
Straight
117. Smile or Eyes:?
eyes
:::Here's What I Think About:::
116. Abortion:
wrong, a baby is a baby from conception.
115. Backstabbers..
will get what they deserve
114. Parents:
should always put THEIR children first no matter what
113. Magic?:
Not real
112. American Politics?:
confusing
111. The Writers Strike?:
That was stupid!
110. Music?:
LOVE it!
109. Drunks?:
sad
108. Gas Prices?:
makes me sick
107. George W?:
made some mistakes but overall, I liked him
106. Southern States?:
where I live
105. Northern States?:
LOVE them!! I will retire to Montana..it's my fave!
104. Terrorists?:
sick
:::Last time I:::
103. Hugged someone?
my babies104. Terrorists?:
sick
:::Last time I:::
103. Hugged someone?
102. Kissed someone:
my babies.
101. Saw someone:
the kids100. Cried in front of someone:
yesterday.
99. Went to a funeral?:
98. Went apple picking?:
never
97.. Was on stage?:
can't remember
96. Made someone laugh?:
Today
95. Answered a text message?:
today
94. Saw a movie?:
while the hubs was home in July.
93. Played music?:
all the time92. Was out of state?:
June
91. Did a household chore?:
today
:::MISC:::
90. Who is the ditziest person you know:
my daughter...I love her, but sometimes she's clueless
89. Who makes you laugh the most:
My kids
82. What I don't understand is:
why certain things happen to good people
75. The thing I'm looking forward to the most is:
Dec. 16th!
74. The thing that I'm not looking forward to is:
Katie's tonsil surgery
73. Tomorrow:
is Thursday
72. Today:
I'm going to bed soon.
71. Next Summer:
Can't get here fast enough
70. This Weekend:
is going to be a lazy weekend for us.
67. People call me:
Jen, Jenny
62. The person who knows the most about me is:
my hubs.
60. The most difficult thing to do is:
drive away from that dang airport. I hate it.
59. I have gotten a speeding ticket:
never
55. The first person i talked to today was:
Jared
54. First Crush?
oh gah, I have no idea!
53. The one person who I can't hide things from:
Josh.
52. Last time someone said something you were thinking:
Josh does this ALL the time!
51. Right now I am talking to:
nobody
50. What is your dream job?
this is the question of the century..I'm not exactly sure what I want to do "when I grow up!"
49. First job?
DQ
47. Pets?
Rufus
46. I wish:
for a lot of things
45. Worst sound in the world:
sirens
44. The person that makes me cry the most is:
myself
43. Best sound in the world:
My babies
42. Last person to make you cry:
Myself
41. Why? ...
missing my hubs
40. Are things ok between you and that person?
awesome :-)
39. Person that makes you really happy?
my little family
38. Cats or dogs?
Dogs.
37. Your first kiss:
in kindergarden
36. Which Golden Girl would you be?
I would be Dorothy I think
35 Myspace or Facebook:
34. Mexican food or Chinese?
Mexican
33. My favorite piece of clothing?
PJ's
32. My favorite color is:
Blue and Pink
31. Last time I cried:
30. My friends are:
great
29. My computer:
HP
27. Last person i got mad at?:
Jackson, for trying to paint the floor with nail polish
26. Person you secretly crush?
nobody..but Chris Young is hot. (I can say this because Josh has a sick fascination with Sara Evans)
25. Favorite place:
at home
24. Favorite Song: ...
Voices - Chris Young
23. Paper or plastic?
plastic
22. The all-time best movie(s) is/are :
Pure Country, sweet home alabama, green Mile
21. The all-time best feeling in the world is:
being in my hubbys arms or cuddling on the couch with all 3 of my babies piled around
20. Favorite scent?
baby lotion
19. What color is your hairbrush:
18.Favorite pair of shoes?
Under Armour tennis shoes...LOVE them.
17. I lose all respect for people who:
don't appreciate their children
16. I respect people who:
help others
15.
Color of your room?
white
14. TV channels you watch?
ABC, GAC, CMT, TLC, Trutv, history
13. Best feature?
eyes
12. Favorite band?
Chris young
11. The worst pain I was ever in was:
white
14. TV channels you watch?
ABC, GAC, CMT, TLC, Trutv, history
13. Best feature?
eyes
12. Favorite band?
Chris young
11. The worst pain I was ever in was:
Physical Pain....my knee surgeries Mentally...when I miscarried (i don't wish that on anyone)
10. Best Memory:
When my kids were born
9. Favorite TV Show:
8. My favorite celebrity is:
Reece Witherspoon
7. Favorite Stuffed Animal:
ones that Josh gave me OR my 4 teddy bears that I still have from when I was young
6. Greatest Fear:
losing one of my kids or hubby
5. My weakness is:
Ski
4. I am waiting for:
Josh to log on
3. Who broke your heart:
my heart is fine.
2. One thing that makes you feel great is:
My Kids
1. One person that you wish you could see right now:
the hubs..and my Mamaw Bagby, I know she would have LOVED my kids..especially Katie.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Our Love Story...
This is our love story.
1. How long have you and your significant other been together?
We started dating February 8, 2002, got engaged in August of 02 and married on November 16th of that very same year!
2. How did you meet? {What's your "love" story?}
Josh and I had been friends since about 3rd grade when my Elementary school burned and we got merged with his Elementary School. :-( We were boyfriend/girlfriend almost all of 6th grade when he broke up with me so his friend could ask me to be his gf. (seriously..this happened). Fast forward lots of years and many classes together, we were both the same place and the same time during a school banquent our Senior year(2/8/2002) when we had the "magical moment" and decided that we would go out again. I don't think we had one single date that was just the 2 of us until after we were married a while. We pretty much just hung out with friends in an empty gas station parking lot..lol. (I was a cheap date apparently!)
3. If married, how long have you been married? If not, is this the guy you hope to marry? {do tell}
Our big 10 yr. anniversary is coming up 11/16/2012
4. If you are married, where did you get married at? Big or small wedding? If not, where would you like to get married? And will it be big or small?
I really wanted to just go away to TN or even to the courthouse. Josh didn't. So we had a small wedding that all together may have cost $1000. The only thing I would change if I had to go back is to insist on the Wedding Chapel in Gatlinburg TN. :-)
5. Do you have any nick-names that you call one another? Do share!
Let's see. I call him Bub, Bubby, and Goober. (he loves it when I call him Goober). But he just calls me Baby. :-)
6. Name 3 things you love most about your honey.
#1 He's by far the funniest person I know. He is always putting a smile on my face.
#2 He's soooo handsome. It seems the older we get, the more I fall in love with him.
#3 Even from miles away, he's an awesome dad.
7. Tell us how he proposed? Or your ideal proposal?
I got off work and decided to surprise him in the tobacco patch. I parked my car at the top of the hill and walked down (passing his parked truck in the process). He got done and we were walking back to his truck where he jumped in real quick before unlocking my door. When I got in his exact words were "oh heck..you've already seen it so I'll just give it to you now!" and he pulls an engagement ring out of the glovebox. I was stunned because I hadn't saw a thing! SO I made him do a total re-do...lol. (but it does make for a funny story). He had plans to take me out to eat and propose, and it was about 2 weeks later before we went out to eat and he asked me again. :-)
8. Is he a flowers and teddy bear kind of guy for v-day, or strawberries, champagne, and rose petals?
Actually none of the above. If we decide to exchange gifts, he usually gets me something practical that I'm currently wanting. And he knows that if all else fails...a Spa Day is by far my favorite thing on Earth.
9. Are you a sunset dinner on the beach kind of girl, or pop a movie in and relax on the couch?
ALL of the above. Actually I'd settle for being in the same zipcode for more than 2 weeks.
10. Tell us one thing you'd like to do with your significant one day. If you could do anything? Go anywhere?
A cruise is #1. It's something we've both never done and that I'm sure we would both enjoy.
11. Tell us what you plan on doing on this Valentine's Day.
I'm sure he'll be working and probably out of the state. Plus it's a school night for the kids so I'll probably watch a movie with them and just pretend it's just another day at home.
12. Are you asking for anything this Christmas?
Not really. I think we've decided to get each other Rocking Chairs for our front porch. I'll just be glad to have him home this Christmas, so presents aren't really important as long as we are together.
13. Give us one piece of advice of keeping a relationship strong and full of love.
My biggest piece of advice is to love deeply, be kind and trustworthy and respect your spouse. Always be supportive no matter what, discuss everything and never jump to conclusions.
14. Show us a picture of what love means to you.
1. How long have you and your significant other been together?
We started dating February 8, 2002, got engaged in August of 02 and married on November 16th of that very same year!
2. How did you meet? {What's your "love" story?}
Josh and I had been friends since about 3rd grade when my Elementary school burned and we got merged with his Elementary School. :-( We were boyfriend/girlfriend almost all of 6th grade when he broke up with me so his friend could ask me to be his gf. (seriously..this happened). Fast forward lots of years and many classes together, we were both the same place and the same time during a school banquent our Senior year(2/8/2002) when we had the "magical moment" and decided that we would go out again. I don't think we had one single date that was just the 2 of us until after we were married a while. We pretty much just hung out with friends in an empty gas station parking lot..lol. (I was a cheap date apparently!)
3. If married, how long have you been married? If not, is this the guy you hope to marry? {do tell}
Our big 10 yr. anniversary is coming up 11/16/2012
4. If you are married, where did you get married at? Big or small wedding? If not, where would you like to get married? And will it be big or small?
I really wanted to just go away to TN or even to the courthouse. Josh didn't. So we had a small wedding that all together may have cost $1000. The only thing I would change if I had to go back is to insist on the Wedding Chapel in Gatlinburg TN. :-)
5. Do you have any nick-names that you call one another? Do share!
Let's see. I call him Bub, Bubby, and Goober. (he loves it when I call him Goober). But he just calls me Baby. :-)
6. Name 3 things you love most about your honey.
#1 He's by far the funniest person I know. He is always putting a smile on my face.
#2 He's soooo handsome. It seems the older we get, the more I fall in love with him.
#3 Even from miles away, he's an awesome dad.
7. Tell us how he proposed? Or your ideal proposal?
I got off work and decided to surprise him in the tobacco patch. I parked my car at the top of the hill and walked down (passing his parked truck in the process). He got done and we were walking back to his truck where he jumped in real quick before unlocking my door. When I got in his exact words were "oh heck..you've already seen it so I'll just give it to you now!" and he pulls an engagement ring out of the glovebox. I was stunned because I hadn't saw a thing! SO I made him do a total re-do...lol. (but it does make for a funny story). He had plans to take me out to eat and propose, and it was about 2 weeks later before we went out to eat and he asked me again. :-)
8. Is he a flowers and teddy bear kind of guy for v-day, or strawberries, champagne, and rose petals?
Actually none of the above. If we decide to exchange gifts, he usually gets me something practical that I'm currently wanting. And he knows that if all else fails...a Spa Day is by far my favorite thing on Earth.
9. Are you a sunset dinner on the beach kind of girl, or pop a movie in and relax on the couch?
ALL of the above. Actually I'd settle for being in the same zipcode for more than 2 weeks.
10. Tell us one thing you'd like to do with your significant one day. If you could do anything? Go anywhere?
A cruise is #1. It's something we've both never done and that I'm sure we would both enjoy.
11. Tell us what you plan on doing on this Valentine's Day.
I'm sure he'll be working and probably out of the state. Plus it's a school night for the kids so I'll probably watch a movie with them and just pretend it's just another day at home.
12. Are you asking for anything this Christmas?
Not really. I think we've decided to get each other Rocking Chairs for our front porch. I'll just be glad to have him home this Christmas, so presents aren't really important as long as we are together.
13. Give us one piece of advice of keeping a relationship strong and full of love.
My biggest piece of advice is to love deeply, be kind and trustworthy and respect your spouse. Always be supportive no matter what, discuss everything and never jump to conclusions.
14. Show us a picture of what love means to you.
Confessions...
~ people in general have no idea how to handle our situation. Everyone wants to feel sorry for me because Josh is overseas..HELLO..he's the one away from his family. I have the kids with me, and I'm able to stay home with them. I say I'm overly blessed :-)
~ 99% of the time I'm overworked, over tired, and just too much of a downer to make any plans.
~ But I've learned that if I stay busy with the kids and on the housework then the time passes quicker...therefore I can see the hubby sooner!
~ I really want to put my Christmas tree and decorations up in October, so the kids and I can enjoy it longer. It's not like we ever have company, so I'm pretty sure I could get away with it :-)
~ I feel completely useless on Monday's. I have no motivation to do anything and when the motivation comes, the day is over.
~ I'm thinking of deactivating my Facebook for a while. too.much.drama. (not directed towards me..but in general)
~ My baby girl is scheduled for surgery Oct. 2nd, and while I'm not really scared of the surgery itself, I'm terrified of the recovery part.
~ I wish that I could still have the kids but rewind time back to 2002. I would have never taken for granted all the times I got to work with Josh and ride to/from work with him. This whole miles away thing stinks majorly.
~ I've had my Christmas list made for 2 months of what I want to gift people with, but have yet to purchase the 1st thing. But I have promised myself to be done by Thanksgiving so I will.
~ I have lost almost 30 lbs. without dieting or taking any meds.
~ Most nights I end up crying for no reason other than the fact it's just too quiet in this house.
~ I've put off knee replacement surgery (both knees) for 3 years now just because I don't want anyone else taking care of my kids while I'm healing and at rehab. Oddly enough, my knees don't give out as much when I don't stop. Sitting down and taking a rest is overrated...it just makes my knees lock up when I do get back up.
~ Sometimes I want to jump on a plane and go to Afghanistan just to see what kind of work Josh really does. But then I take a step back and realize that I don't really want to know. Most of the time, I don't even know what city/base he's at and I'm totally ok with that. less stress for me, because I can honestly be dumb about it when people ask me and start talking about stuff that is happening there (I don't watch/listen/read world news EVER)
~ 99% of the time I'm overworked, over tired, and just too much of a downer to make any plans.
~ But I've learned that if I stay busy with the kids and on the housework then the time passes quicker...therefore I can see the hubby sooner!
~ I really want to put my Christmas tree and decorations up in October, so the kids and I can enjoy it longer. It's not like we ever have company, so I'm pretty sure I could get away with it :-)
~ I feel completely useless on Monday's. I have no motivation to do anything and when the motivation comes, the day is over.
~ I'm thinking of deactivating my Facebook for a while. too.much.drama. (not directed towards me..but in general)
~ My baby girl is scheduled for surgery Oct. 2nd, and while I'm not really scared of the surgery itself, I'm terrified of the recovery part.
~ I wish that I could still have the kids but rewind time back to 2002. I would have never taken for granted all the times I got to work with Josh and ride to/from work with him. This whole miles away thing stinks majorly.
~ I've had my Christmas list made for 2 months of what I want to gift people with, but have yet to purchase the 1st thing. But I have promised myself to be done by Thanksgiving so I will.
~ I have lost almost 30 lbs. without dieting or taking any meds.
~ Most nights I end up crying for no reason other than the fact it's just too quiet in this house.
~ I've put off knee replacement surgery (both knees) for 3 years now just because I don't want anyone else taking care of my kids while I'm healing and at rehab. Oddly enough, my knees don't give out as much when I don't stop. Sitting down and taking a rest is overrated...it just makes my knees lock up when I do get back up.
~ Sometimes I want to jump on a plane and go to Afghanistan just to see what kind of work Josh really does. But then I take a step back and realize that I don't really want to know. Most of the time, I don't even know what city/base he's at and I'm totally ok with that. less stress for me, because I can honestly be dumb about it when people ask me and start talking about stuff that is happening there (I don't watch/listen/read world news EVER)
Monday, September 3, 2012
Because....
I'm weird because....
- I have to have the thermostat on an even number. I don't do odd numbers well. (not sure why)
- I have more pens in my purse than most people do in their entire house
- I will write something over and over just because I don’t like the way my handwriting looks.
- I will cook the same thing over and over until I make myself sick of it.
I'm a bad friend because....
- I text instead of call.
- I prefer being alone just so I don't have to explain my crappy moods and the fact that I no longer have things in common with most of my friends.
- I'm bad at thinking of doing something really nice and then forgetting.
I'm a good friend because....
- I love the few friends I do have to death.
- I would do anything for any one of them.
I'm sad because....
- I’ve pushed my closest friends away.
- I feel like I don't do enough, when I could always do more.
- I miss Josh like crazy!
- I feel like I’ve let my kids down by not doing enough with them outside of this house.
- Oct. 8th is just around the corner...I hate that I remember the day I miscarried more often that the actual due-date(May 26th) of that baby. Luckily this year I'll be spending it in a Dr's office for a post-op appt for Katie after she gets her tonsils taken out.
I'm happy because....
- I have 3 of the most awesome kids ever.
- I am able to stay home with them (although I'd gladly work 3 jobs outside the home, if it meant that I would see Josh even one hour a week in person rather than on a screen)
- there is only 103 days left Josh is in the United States for good (work-wise)
- I've got a completely clean house, just need to finish organizing.
I'm excited for....
- Fall to be here and stay. I'm ready for boots and hoodie weather.
- Christmas..Mainly because we get to share it with Josh this year. :-)
- the future. I know that the last 5 years have been SO hard, but I fully believe that once Josh gets home things will be better for all of us.
- I have to have the thermostat on an even number. I don't do odd numbers well. (not sure why)
- I have more pens in my purse than most people do in their entire house
- I will write something over and over just because I don’t like the way my handwriting looks.
- I will cook the same thing over and over until I make myself sick of it.
I'm a bad friend because....
- I text instead of call.
- I prefer being alone just so I don't have to explain my crappy moods and the fact that I no longer have things in common with most of my friends.
- I'm bad at thinking of doing something really nice and then forgetting.
I'm a good friend because....
- I love the few friends I do have to death.
- I would do anything for any one of them.
I'm sad because....
- I’ve pushed my closest friends away.
- I feel like I don't do enough, when I could always do more.
- I miss Josh like crazy!
- I feel like I’ve let my kids down by not doing enough with them outside of this house.
- Oct. 8th is just around the corner...I hate that I remember the day I miscarried more often that the actual due-date(May 26th) of that baby. Luckily this year I'll be spending it in a Dr's office for a post-op appt for Katie after she gets her tonsils taken out.
I'm happy because....
- I have 3 of the most awesome kids ever.
- I am able to stay home with them (although I'd gladly work 3 jobs outside the home, if it meant that I would see Josh even one hour a week in person rather than on a screen)
- there is only 103 days left Josh is in the United States for good (work-wise)
- I've got a completely clean house, just need to finish organizing.
I'm excited for....
- Fall to be here and stay. I'm ready for boots and hoodie weather.
- Christmas..Mainly because we get to share it with Josh this year. :-)
- the future. I know that the last 5 years have been SO hard, but I fully believe that once Josh gets home things will be better for all of us.
Where do I start.....
I'm starting this blog as a way to gather my thoughts and try to keep track of our every day life. A little about me: I'm a 28 year old mother of 3 awesome kids Jared, Katie, and Jackson. They always keep me on my toes and say the darnest things. I'm sure that a billion other blogs are way more interesting. I'm horrible at journaling so I thought this may be easier for me. I am so blessed to be a stay at home mom, my kids are my life...period. I married my very best friend Josh in November 2002 and I can't even begin to describe how much I love him. Yes..he's a goober who will do anything to put a smile on mine or the kids faces. But for the most part, I know exactly what he's thinking and I still get butterflies whenever I hear his voice so that's all that matters...right?!? The kids and I pretty much stay at home all the time while Josh is gone. We have very little of a social life unless it involves going to church, a local restaurant or to a grandparents house. In the last several years, I've been let down more than I care to admit so I have turned into the ultimate hermit and refuse to invite myself anywhere. The way I see it, if someone wants to see ME, they can come to me because if I'm so easily replaced then I obviously wasn't the friend I thought I was. Josh has worked for a military contract company for 5 years now. He's currently in Afghanistan. Actually he's been there since Jan. 2011 with a couple of 2-week trips home. Being essentially a single parent for the most part is hard, alot harder than I every thought. But I'm so proud of him for doing what he loves and being the man he is. BUT we do miss him SO much and look forward to those phone calls, chats, and Face-time sessions every day. I long for the days when my whole family can be together under one roof without having a count-down in the back of my head telling me our time together is coming to an end soon.
I saw on another blog that they had done a series of blog posts so that every thing is "out there" for any readers who happen to stumble upon the blog. I honestly could care less if anyone or if everyone reads my blog. I'm doing it for me and for my memories. SO I think I'll start with that series soon. If your here, then thanks for stopping in. Until next time.......
I saw on another blog that they had done a series of blog posts so that every thing is "out there" for any readers who happen to stumble upon the blog. I honestly could care less if anyone or if everyone reads my blog. I'm doing it for me and for my memories. SO I think I'll start with that series soon. If your here, then thanks for stopping in. Until next time.......
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)